I'm a firm believer that our emotional state directly affects our physical state. This theory became fact for me after I read Feelings Buried Alive Never Die, a few years ago. The basic premise is that you can't bury or avoid emotions and expect them to disappear. They have to come out somehow and they will.
The hard thing here is that we're all human and whether we're aware of it or not, we all bury feelings to a degree. I have been sick now for three weeks. It's started out as a sinus/ear infection, morphed into the stomach flu, then turned into a bad head cold. They all overlapped one another by a couple of days.
It didn't take me long to realize why I was sick. I've let myself get depressed about my book deal gone south. Who wouldn't? The problem I'm having is, how do you get those awful feelings out? Exercise? Did that and it didn't work. Talk about it? Did that too. Still got sick. Slathering the name of my editor all over the internet and venting all my anger, frustration, fury, and sadness for everyone to read? Not going to do that. It's not my style. My style is to get sick, I guess.
I don't believe that making someone else feel miserable will make me feel better. So what do you do? Honestly, I don't know. I guess you get sick and weather it out. It takes two to tango and I'm sure my editor would have some lovely things to say about me (although I don't know how she could. I was awesome) if given the opportunity. The point here is that I need to discover a different way to swim through this current of pollution and not let it get to me. Maybe I just need another forty years to figure it out.
But don't worry. I'll be fine. I'll live through this, keep writing, find other publishers (hopefully) and be proud of the life I've led. That's all that really matters in the end anyway. There are people living in the world right now who have it way worse than me in so many ways. My life is blissful and wonderful compared to so many others. Not that what I'm going through doesn't matter, but in the long run, does it?