Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Rantings of an insomniac

It's time for a new post, but to be honest, I'm just not into it today. I can't think of a thing I can write about. I can think of a lot of things I'd like to write about, but can't.

To sum up. It has been a terrible, frustrating week. My heart aches. I feel like crying all the time. Close friends have rallied around and wrapped their support around me and that has made all the difference. Don't worry, nobody died. It's just a difficult time where I feel up in the air, not knowing how things will turn out.

It makes my heart hurt all the time. I can't sleep, I cry easy, I can't miss a workout or else I go insane, and the worst part is that my husband has been gone hunting the whole time. I'm a single parent and all alone in my despair. How typical. Not that I'm normally pessimistic or cynical, but that's how I'm feeling right now. It will all work out in the end. It always does. It's the question of how that's keeping me up at night.

14 comments:

Chantele Sedgwick said...

I hope everything is okay!!

LTM said...

so sorry--feel better soon! ((hugs))

Pk Hrezo said...

Sorry to hear it. Wishing many good thoughts your way!!! Have faith in yourself.

Ann Best said...

I just saw your friendly face on my followers icon and came over. Glad I did, if nothing more than to cheer you up!! Of course I don't know why you're feeling so depressed, but I do know I've been there too and how it feels. Hang in there. Do something you enjoy. Watch a fun movie (one of my favorite things). Move furniture or change your template (my very favorite things (lol). Read scriptures to prepare for your Sunday lesson. I had the privilege of teaching Gospel Doctrine for almost three years when I lived in St. George; I was sixty at the time! And I OFTEN got depressed. It was mildly terrifying at the beginning, and didn't get much better as time went on (lol). But I LOVED it. It was a GREAT experience.

Invictus. Great poem. I see where you posted it last week. It was Mary Gray's post on the movie that took me to it. Awesome. My daughter was moaning about watching it, but she was riveted too. Nothing better to inspire us than someone who's overcome the most severe obstacles in life!

Feel better soon!!!
Ann

Old Kitty said...

Oh I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling extremely low! I'm glad to hear you have supportive friends to help you and to comfort you! Please hang on in there!! I hope that you'll feel better soon and that whatever's troubling you will soon disappear! All the best and take care
x

Melissa J. Cunningham said...

Thanks so much, you guys. In the eternal spectrum, this will be a teeny tiny bump. A mole hill if anything. But it's something that means the world to me now. I know that God will take care of me, that it will all work out for my best whatever that is. But it's so hard to have faith that it will be painless, because nothing wonderful is ever painless. LOL

The Red Angel said...

Hello, I'm a new follower of yours. :) I browsed some of your blog posts and have enjoyed them...I'm excited to see your future posts!

I'm sorry to hear that your week is going badly. Just remember that everyone has awful weeks and they WILL eventually blow over.

Maybe you should invest some time into something that you enjoy. Don't think about work or the pressures of being a mother and just do something for YOU. Read a magazine, talk a walk outside, go gardening...whatever floats your boat, do it. :)

Best of luck, hope everything turns out okay!

~TRA

http://xtheredangelx.blogspot.com

Terri Tiffany said...

I am so sorry! I have moments like that but they don't last forever--that is the good news.
Like do you want good news? LOL It's true!
Thank you for stopping by my blog today! I love meeting new writers!

Tamara Hart Heiner said...

hugs, girl! I hope you're doing all right!

L.T. Elliot said...

I'm sorry for the hurt. Today's a craptastic day. I'll pray for you and hope tomorrow comes with a silver lining. Or lots of chocolates.

Deni Krueger said...

I'm really sorry it's tough. For what it's worth, I understand. My husband is gone, too.

And I have a question: If you truly believe that everything is going to work out in the end...does the how part of really matter?

I think...that's probably the toughest part of coming to terms with faith.

Tamara Hart Heiner said...

just checking on you!

Carole Anne Carr said...

Hope the problems are sorting themselves out.

Adeeva Afsheen said...


Banned complain !! Complaining only causes life and mind become more severe. Enjoy the rhythm of the problems faced. No matter ga life, not a problem not learn, so enjoy it :)

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