"It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting. People learn early in their lives what is their reason for being." From the The Alchemist.
I just started to read this book and it has really made me think. Do we really learn early on our reason for being? I don't mean in the eternal long run. I mean, "What is it you're meant to do while you're here?"
I grew up and studied music. I was pretty good, but not great. I thought it was 'meant to be.' I didn't realize that I had an affinity for writing. When I was kid, I wrote stories all the time, but what kid doesn't? That doesn't mean I should be a writer, does it?
In my early college days I was on a trip to Catalina with my family. We were sitting out on the deck of the boat as we traveled and I was telling a story to my sister as she lay with her head on my lap. What I didn't realize was that a man sitting close by was listening.
After, he was amazed, told me how great a story teller I was and that he knew people in Hollywood who would be interested in my talent. I almost laughed. I wasn't a story teller. I was a musician. I told him my sisters and I sang and he was interested in that too. He was in the entertainment business and could pretty much hook me up with anyone. He was a really nice family man and was there with his family.
I was so dumb.
At the time, my insecurity and naivete took hold. I was just a little Mormon girl, and what did I know of the world? I was too afraid to go forward with that dream. I could just kick myself now. But I also believe that things happen in time, and for a reason.
I've experienced a bit more of life now and have a wonderful family. If I had jumped at the chance in my twenties, would I be the same person I am now? I don't know. I never will know, but the point here is yes, I knew, but didn't know, that I was a writer.
I wish I would have started a long time ago, but where would I change things? I wish I could live my life over and over to see which version is the best! Then again, that would be hard. The version I'm in is pretty good, so I'll keep it, but sometimes I wonder where I'd be if I'd taken that guy's offer.